Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Just a feeling

Sudden... Sudden feel so tired...
Sudden... Sudden feel so weird...
Sudden... Sudden feel heartbroken...
Sudden... Sudden feel myself so stupid...
Sudden... Sudden feel myself is hard to compare with others...
Sudden... Sudden feel myself is so trivial...
Sudden... Sudden feel myself is just a nothing...
What Am I to you???
What I am to you is not what you mean to me...



Angel

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Monday, December 20, 2010

Useless

Am I too useless until I'm not being needed?
Am I too useless until I'm not being trusted?
Am I too useless until I'm need be informed?
Yes, I am. I'm the one the most useless.
Yes, I am. I'm the one the most not be needed.
Yes, I am. I'm always the one extra and most troublesome.
Yes, I am. Always is the last one being found.
Yes, I am. Always is the last one being noticed.
What to do?
I'm small, I'm stupid, I'm weak, I'm forgetful.
I'm speechless, I'm not assertive.
What to do?
I'm used to it. Is true.
No worries, I'm fine.
Everything will be fine.
That all.
Bye.

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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

~Is time to put down~

After persisting so many years, now I had decided to let you go...

Thank you ever being the one that so care all about me...
Thank you ever putting a lot of smiles on my face...
Thank you ever sharing my feelings with you when I need someone...
Thank you ever doing all warm things that make me feel I am be loved...

And

Thank you for leaving me is just want me to get a better one...
Thank you for treat me coldly is just want me to put you down seriously...

I know the reason why you are leaving...
I know the reason why you treat me coldly...
I know all of those why that make you suffering...
So,
I was waiting you to figure out by yourself that there is no fear in this world if you with me...
I was waiting the day you turn back with no afraid at all...
But I realised the way I waiting just make you feel even more suffering...

I am so sorry...
So, just let you go bah...
Even though that I am not so sure I can do it or not...
But I will try...
Disappear from your life from now...
And take you out of my life as well...
In your future, I will no be there...
In my future, you and your memories will always be in the deepest side of my heart...

Thank you for everything lastly...

Goodbye~

Angel

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Friday, December 3, 2010

~Share~情侶分手後要記得十件事

一、
当爱情不在的时候
请对他说声祝福
毕竟..
曾经爱过

二、
结束以后别告诉他我恨你
因为..
爱情是两个人的事
错过了大家都有责任

三、
离开以后想到的定是落寞的画面
但请你忘记它
一个人总要有个新的开始
别让过去把你栓在悲哀的殿堂

四、
别说你最爱的是谁
人生还很长
谁也无法预知明天
也许你的真爱还在下一秒等着你

五、
说分手的时候不要吵闹
毕竟两个在在一起那么久
分了他也会难过
只是他比较明智
不想束缚你的或他的明天
好聚好散..
以后还是朋友
大家都有自己的无奈

六、
别把哀伤挂在嘴上
每个人都有自己的故事
活着不是为了怀念昨天
而是要等待希望
让大家都看到你的坚强
离开他你也可以过得很好

七 、
离开以后
大声的告诉他:
我爱你
与你无关
爱是你的权利
把想说的都说出来
平静的回忆你们的过去
然后哭吧.....
哭完就把一切都留在昨天
永远不要去触及

八、
想他的时候
就想想他
记得曾经爱过一个人
别去管最后是谁开始了背叛
开心过就好

九、
分手了就做回自己
一个人的世界同样有月升月落
也有美丽的瞬间
把他归为记忆

十、
一个人的世界
总需要另一个人做陪衬
他离开了
那是他对不起你
相信自己会有更好的明天


-trying my best ^^ -

(from : http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=128257707234507&id=118235171560664 )


Angel

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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

有些话,可能是你一辈子想知道的答案

Maybe is your answer for one day...
Keep it =)


莎士比亚说:
   再好的东西,都有失去的一天。
   再深的记忆,也有淡忘的一天。
   再爱的人,也有远走的一天。
   再美的梦,也有苏醒的一天。
   该放弃的决不挽留。
   该珍惜的决不放手,分手后不可以做朋友,因为彼此伤害过!
   也不可以做敌人,因为彼此深爱过。

几米说:
   当你喜欢我的时候,我不喜欢你,
   当你爱上我的时候,我喜欢上你,
   当你离开我的时候,我却爱上你,
   是你走得太快,还是我跟不上你的脚步,
   我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,
   错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过。
   我不了解我的寂寞来自何方,但我真的感到寂寞。
   你也寂寞,世界上每个人都寂寞,只是大家的寂寞都不同吧。



张小娴说:
如果没法忘记他,就不要忘记好了。
真正的忘记,是不需要努力的。





(Extract from Facebook)


Angel


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Sunday, November 28, 2010

Sorry that I loved you

《Sorry That I Loved You》
作詞:Skot Suyama/倪安東Anthony Neely(中譯:陶晶瑩)
作曲:Skot Suyama
For all of the times that I tried for your smile(曾經我總是試著討妳歡心)
For making you think that I was worth the while(好讓妳認為我就是真命天子)
So your love love love love love would be mine(那麼我就能贏得妳的愛)

For sending you flowers and holding your hand(送妳鮮花牽妳的手)
That no one was there to take a stand(沒有人阻止我們)
But then love love love made us blind(但是愛情終究讓我們盲目)

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you(對不起我傷害了妳)
Sorry that I fell through(對不起我搞砸了)
Sorry I was falling in love with you(對不起我愛上了妳)
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time(很抱歉它發生了 但道歉也不能讓時光倒流)
For all that I have done to you(所有我對妳做的事)
I wish that I could make it right(我希望可以補償)
So sorry that I loved you(對不起我曾經那樣愛妳)
Sorry that I needed you(對不起我曾經那麼地需要妳)
Sorry that I held you tight(對不起我曾緊緊擁著妳)

And I'm so sorry for...(而且我還要道歉的是)
Making you love me and saying goodbye(讓妳愛上我卻必須說再見)
For being the one that taught you how to cry(還有 我居然教會了妳 什麼是哭泣)
It was love love love and it passed us by(愛情真的來過 但它又悄悄溜走)

For giving you every thing that you dreamed(很抱歉我曾給妳夢想的一切)
For taking it back when I fled the scene(卻又在我逃離後全部拿走)
Sorry love, for wasting your time(抱歉 我的愛 因為我浪費了妳的青春)

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you(對不起我傷害了妳)
Sorry that I fell through(對不起我搞砸了)
Sorry I was falling in love with you(對不起我愛上了妳)
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time(很抱歉惡夢成真但再多的道歉也改變不了什麼)
For all that I have done to you(所有我對妳做的事)
I wish that I could make it right(我希望可以補償)
So sorry that I loved you(對不起我曾經那樣愛妳)
Sorry that I needed you(對不起我曾經那麼地需要妳)
Sorry that I held you tight(對不起我曾緊緊擁著妳)

An apology now after all of this time(經過了這麼久)
Won't make any difference tonight(一句抱歉並不能改變什麼)
But I'm hoping "im sorry" will open your mind(但我真心希望 這句抱歉能打開妳的心房)
To love love love love in your life(好讓妳在未來還能繼續去愛)

~Nice song~ ^^

Angel
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Saturday, November 27, 2010

最近

最近...好多活動哦...好忙好忙...
忙著玩...家都很少回了...
弟弟想我了~~哈哈....(paiseh tim)

上個Penang trip...
雖然感覺上沒去到什麽地方...
可是那個tirp很好玩...
我多了個papa,mama,kor kor 和 jie jie (aka 大嫂)..
哈哈...
嗯...也去看了James...

James,不好意思哦...
沒帶東西去探望你...
可是...我卻有帶了我滿滿思念你的心情去哦...
也不好意思tim...竟然對著你的照片落淚了...
哈哈...答應你...下次不會了...=)

上上星期....連續幾晚都出去喝茶...
哈哈... movie + yew birthday celebration...
還真瘋狂啊~~~
可是...就是喜歡聚在一起的感覺^^

上個周未...去了Taman Pertanian...
可是卻沒騎到腳踏車....>.<
(醬算去過嗎???)
下次再去騎,和玩skystrex 好不好>.<

哈哈...最近好不安現狀哦....
幾乎沒辦法乖乖得呆在家了...
以前總覺得自己根本就不像個白羊....
每天像個宅女窩在家...
可是...現在每天卻想往外跑....
哈哈...原來...我真的是只小白羊啊 =P

嗯...也可能...是不想讓自己有多餘的時間胡思亂想吧...
最近...總覺得心口悶悶的....
每天每天...都覺得好不舒服....
一直...有種想哭的感覺.... =(
可是...卻說不出是爲什麽...
所以...想見見朋友...暫時把那感覺忘了...
也已經很儘量讓自己保持愉快的心情...
可是....可能...心病還是需要心藥醫吧...
回到家...那感覺又回來了... =(
好辛苦哦...希望...它可以快快好回... ^^

好啦...最開心的事是...
我終於買了周傑倫的演唱會門票啦~~~
好開心哦....第一次的演唱會...
要準備些什麽呢???
好興奮啊~~~
5/3/2011快快到啦~~
=D

❤Tickets❤

❤超時代_演唱會❤

還有...還有....
超可愛的鋪滿^^

❤From my dear Seh❤

❤還會變身tim❤
❤謝啦^^❤

明晚...又有TA17的gathering啦...
順便慶祝SK的birthday...
嘻嘻嘻嘻....
期待期待^^

Angel

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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

To: James

時間過得好快...一年了...
回想起...感覺你還在...
只是忙到...忘了我....

嗯...開始不喜歡快到年尾的感覺...
去年是你...
今年是Selina被燒傷... =(
好可憐...
好心疼...
好多災難....
好不公平....>.<

人...好像真的很脆弱hor...
好像...下一秒就會隨時消失一樣....
所以...雖然我活得有點懶散....
可是,我已經儘量讓自己活得精彩一點....
哈哈....讓自己不再活在後悔中...
想說什麽就說....想做什麽就做... (有點霸道hor?>.<)

Erm...這個假期...會到Langkawi去...
Erm...有機會就去看你吧...沒去...別怪我哦,ok? =P
Erm...你說過,要把Malaysia全部旅遊勝地走完....
雖然我去過的地方,你應該都去過了吧...
可是,我會"儘量"代你把全馬走完(你知道的啦...我很懶的>.<)

這個部落...因為你...已經開了一年了...
謝謝你...讓我又開始寫部落...
看回以前的posts,好多好多的心情和回憶哦...
謝謝你...讓我把它們全都記下啦...(雖然沒很多=P)

Erm.. Erm... 你離開了一年....
我除了臉上上滿痘痘...
踏上了社會大學....
我...還是那個矮矮的我....
我...還是那個笨笨的我....
我...還是一個人的我....
我姐說:“你又不是長得很丑,可是這麼多年你還是一個人,
就證明你有一定的眼光"
可是,我想了想...我哪有....>.<
我...只是習慣了一個人...
我...只是不習慣有陌生人闖進我的生活....
我...只是不懂自己在怕些什麽....
沒辦法啦....什麽都怕的我...
還是保持現狀好^^

即將開始半工半讀的生活...
會很忙的...會更忙~~
不過,"應該"還是"會"到這裡來的啦...
只是...................你知道的啦....
嘻嘻嘻嘻.....

好啦...還是講回每次會跟你講的:
還是很多朋友很想你....
你的面子書和部落格還是有那麼多的留言...
好多朋友哦....
羡慕^^
當然,我不多,可是每個都對我很好...
感恩啦... =)

祝你在天堂過得幸福啦^^
也保佑Selina和俞瀨明....快快痊愈^^
Bye~~~ ^^

Angel

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Sunday, October 17, 2010

~懒~

哦...我的天...
真的超久没update blog 了啦...
当然不是因为工作忙...
而是....太懒了...每次打到一半,就offline睡觉...
哈哈哈=P

最近好吗?

嗯...

在BDO已经两个月半了...
开始习惯了工作环境...
认识了很多seniors和同事...
每个都很nice...
第一个job很好...不会OT到太迟...
weekends 也不用赶回公司OT...
seniors和team members也很nice...
很多人都说我很幸运...
嗯嗯...我也觉得还蛮lucky下的 =P
希望下一个job也那么好^^

嗯...

有空就跟死党出街...
看电影...逛街...旅行...通宵....
哈哈...比求学生活还精彩... =D
谢谢你们啊...
不过,每次都麻烦到你们=(
真不好意思....>.<
可是,可以跟你们出去...
真的很好...很开心~~哈哈....
谢啦~~
当然也要谢谢Seh啦,没回家的日子,
都会来陪我... hehe... muakss~~

什么都适应得很好...
就是....
心理还没好....
三年了...还是一样....
辛苦啊....
几时才能好??
原来自己可以坚持那么久...
还真没想过....>.<

最近...很喜欢王力宏的<你不知道的事>...
每次听,都会有想哭的感觉....
为什么?不知道....
好听咯...哈哈...

好啦...就简单带过这几个月的生活啦...
不要打我>.<




~好想问:"痘痘,您们什么时候才要消失啊??!!!"~~

Friday, July 30, 2010

Rushing week

This Monday morning,I get called from BDO and inform me that I get offered...
I so surprise.. because I thought I already fail in the interview..
Why I think so? Because... My answers are too short and brief.. and is nothing.....>.<
Anyway.. My 1st job.. I'm very excited and need to collect the letter on Tue...

So, Tuesday my dad brought me go BDO and then sent me to my younger sister,JuneTing hostel...
Because I need to stay at KL to find room to rent, buy formal clothings and shoe.. and body check=.=
This nite.. watched "Inception" with my close frens : Seh, WC,Clara, Soh and Yew.. =)
This movie is really nice =P
Also need thanked to LSP,cause fetch me go find Seh and save a lot of time ^^

Wednesday, my dear,SK come Wangsa, cause she can accompany me go find room,shopping...
But,she same as me.. a little bit 路癡... keep get wrong way.. haha... Sorry ya SK, trouble u tim..
Then we went to Maluri and find room.. And thanks to Seh,introduce her fren to me as her fren got 1 empty room for rent.. but.. I didn't decide to stay there.. because.. got guys and only 1 girl.. never stay with guys,except my dad and brother.. I feel so............ haha.... dont know lah...
Then Sk brought me go medical check up and shop for clothings....
LOLX... almost 11pm reach my sister hostel...
Today done all... finished shop for clothings,shoe,body check... and I decided to stay at my sister hostel temporary and find room around there....
Ya.. tonite.. ended with yamcha with LSP....
And really thanked SK ler... muakss~~

Thursday... My sister accompany me go take bus,lrt and starline.. see need use how long to get to my firm... Almost 1 hour, and need change 3 time and need walk there and here... tired....
After she reached,she said actually my firm very near Wangsa Maju.. take bus just need 30-40 min and no need change so many public transport,so I decided to try on Friday...
Then we went to shop again... bcoz I havent brought bag for work and some masks...
haiz.. who meet me recently.. sure know.. my face now have a lot .. NOT!!! is has thousand of pimples on my face.. compare to last time of my smooth face... I feel so down and sad... Last time didnt care the face it nothing,now so care,it keep grow pimples.. I feel want to chop them down!!! dam~~~
But what to do... they are on my face.. and I can't control them... T___T
Nite, LSP brought me go Sungai Long ate nasi lemak as I wished to eat since graduated.. but change ppl selling the nasi lemak edi.. no nice T___T...
After that we went to cheras yamcha with Seh ^^ Hehe....
(why always yamcha with LSP? because he everynight sure at Wangsa Maju gaming... and do nothing... hahahaha.... )

Today-Friday,wake up at 6++am.. because whole nite cant sleep... then went out,want try take bus...
But I didnt realise that left and right side are going to different location.. I suppose get in to Genting Klang bus,but yesterday my sister brought me take Wangsa Maju bus.. I a little confuse and stand there almost half an hour,see buses come and go=.= Finally,went back hostel and ask my sister....swtness...
ok.. get in right bus.. but that time was having too many passengers and block my view.. I can't see where is my firm,and I wait and wait.....>.< almost want 45min,havent reach,I worried... Finally,the driver told me that my firm was passed!!!! OMG... I take the same bus back to Wangsa maju again... What the hell...
I really can't really memorize the roads, and the buildings around.. I'm so weak on these... haiz...
So, how? don't know lah... now I just feel faster reach 5pm and I want back home liao...
Is so stressful when in KL... Totally can't sleep well... haiz...
How to pass my working life... Thinking and thinking....
Conclusion is 順其自然 lo....
Late to work then late to work lo...
Insomnia then insomnia lo....
Pimples grow whole face mai let them grow lo...
I'm surrender~~~~~

Ya... Next Monday... I'm going to start my career and future in BDO...
4 years study life didn't train me to become independent and sensitive to surroundings...
Hope,my working life can train me to be strong,independent, and smart...
God,please bless me ^^v


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Saturday, June 26, 2010

❤❤My Souvenir ❤❤

This post just share my souvenirs...
No show off... :P
Just few...
And
Just share share and really want say THANKS to them =)

Malaysia
❤Penang❤
❤Thanks,Chery❤
- Message Board-
❤Thanks,Cai Xuan❤
-Key chain-
❤Thanks,Yi Hong❤
-So cute^^v-
❤Thanks,Clara and Yeow Kwang❤
-Key chain-

❤Lembing❤
❤Thanks,Seh and Soh❤
-Message clip-

❤Redang❤
❤Thanks,WC Tan❤
-with Redang sand-

❤Sabah❤
❤Thanks,Xiao Mai❤
-Key chain-
-special for me... the teeth>.<-

❤Singapore❤
❤Thanks,Jane❤
-key chain-

❤Hong Kong❤
❤Thanks,Niki❤
-photo frame-
❤Thanks,Evon❤
-key chain-

❤Japan❤
❤Thanks,Chery❤
-handphone starp-

❤China❤
❤Thanks,Evon❤
-chopsticks-
❤Thanks,Pilot❤
- handphone starp and cloth -

❤Taiwan❤
❤Thanks,Sister - Tracy❤
-necklace-
❤I Like this ^^v❤

Thanks you all...
让你们破费了...
but most important is...
you all are really put me in your heart...^^v
"Carry me" when you all are travelling...
the 心意...I received❤❤❤
I really appreciate it ^^v
Muakssss❤❤❤


Angel

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10 - 11.06.2010 Penang trip

This was my 1st family trip with a lot of families...
haha.. Erm.. special?
For me.. is the same lo.. cause I just with my sisters and brother..
Didn't 交流 with others... because they all are MUCH SMALLER than me>.<
I'm the older among the children... haiz...
but nobody realize this.. hahaha...
GREAT~~~ ^^v

In the bus
❤Didi
❤I'm cool =)

In Penang
-Forget those temple's name jor :P-
❤Me
❤Xiiao Chuii
❤Cupid Angel
❤Chuii_Mimi_Didi
❤Mama_Papa

❤Didi so 做作 :P
❤睡佛
❤Family photo

Before abroad 
❤Yea Yea
❤双鱼星号

❤Star Cruises

❤My IC card - specially for STAR CRUISES use
- Is room key-
- Is credit card too-

After check-in... put bags into our room...
We fast fast changed clothes because want go to swim...
Manatao.. the swimming pool is so "BIG"
LOLxDDD...
Just Didi went down swim and we went back bath 
and after that take dinner>.<


On the Star Cruise
❤Chui_Er_Me_Mimi
❤I'm young^^
❤Didi naked ..haha

Night View
❤Windows of The Sea
❤I and Mimi
❤Pisces
❤Me lor =)

❤吹海风
- so nice to lay on there... -
- is a nice place to relax^^v -

My room
❤Door + 衣橱
❤Toilet
❤Toilet
❤bed

❤Didi^^
❤Er Er
❤做鬼脸

This night.. Didi slept with me.. As usual >.<
Mama and papa 1 room...
Chuii, Mimi and Erer another room... 
haha...
The room is so small...
走三四步reach bed already...
but the bed very nice...
nice to sleep.. is True...!!
Didi so fast fall asleep...
Just me.. can't sleep...
because whole day didn't online... 
hahahaha....

~Nite~

Next day
❤Early in the morning
❤Restaurant - breakfast

Morning view (Random)
❤ErEr_Mimi_Chuii

❤Cool,Didi!!
❤Climb so high>.<



❤Waiting check out
❤Pi gu~~Pi gu~
❤Didi also know.. Talk to my leg~~


极乐寺
❤龟龟

❤观音像
❤Monkey
❤Dragon
❤Dog
~Is hot~

After that, we went to Queensbay Complex...
Is a shopping centre in Penang...
but there is no Popular inside.. LOLxD...
haha...

After that, went to Kampar to have dinner...
On the way...
It's raining....so BIG~~

Kampar
❤Dinner
-42 table-
and my room number is 10402 ^^v

~Didi~
~Waiting~

Then.. went home lo...
On the bus... the driver played <老师嫁老大>
I laughed like crazy...
but last time I no really like this movie..
because a lot of "three letter words"...
But I felt very funny that nite...
so...
I realized:
我的笑点变低了...
hahaha...whatever la ^^v

This trip is okay...
For my dad.. is Good.. 
because he no need drive...
and can chit chat with his frens...
For my mama... is Great...
because the 小霸王 is always with me...
she no need care him so often...
For my sisters... is Bored...
because nothing to play on the ship...
the movie so old and low quality too.. haha...
For me... erm.. 
the food on the board is Nice...
the bed is Excellent... I like it so much...
If next time have chance to go again...
I will say "No"..
Save money and go Taiwan find my Xiao Jie is better~~^^v

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Angel

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